Memory Lane

Memories, memories, memories.

So, the other day I got to looking at some old notes that I have stored away in some shoe boxes of mine. I'm so bad. I had 16 letters, from one piece of mail, that I got a long time ago and I didn't read them all until lastnight. They are from.. like... 3 years ago. I'm just really dumb and stupid I guess. I never realized how much this person liked me... and I just avoided them.. and left them behind like they meant nothing to me. I was a jerk! I guess girls can be jerks too. lol. They wrote in almost every single letter how I was always on their mind and they could never stop thinking of me. 16 letters.. and most of them were written on the same day.. or within the same week. That's insane.. and at the end of every letter, they drew a heart and put Michelle and ______ forever. I treated them so badly. How stupid was that? At the time.. I was just confused and thought it would just make things better.. but I only messed it up.

I love going through boxes or my last diary. It's so much fun going through memory lane. lol. I have all of my letters organized... all the letters that I received this year from camp.. I have that organized. Ha! I'm such a loser. For camp this summer, for my award, I got best laugh and cheerful heart.

I was looking back on my diary too at how I would say one thing that I wasn't going to do or told myself I wasn't going to do.. and I'd turn around and do it. That's stupid. I looked back on a story someone once told me. This is how it goes.... There was a little boy who really really really wanted this ball from the toy store. He begged his father, every day he went to the toy store, for that ball. Until finally, his father got him a ball, but it was even better than the one that he asked for. Sometimes you ask God for something you really want, and He'll turn around and give you something even better... I love how that works.. lol. I'm just praying for that something to come around soon....... but patience is the key... something I need to work on... it's funny that I say patience is that key.. when in the Bible it says faith is the key.. so faith is the key guys! "So that's why faith is the key! God's promise is given to us as a free gift." Romans 4:16