... well...

Just do it! Why can't you just say it!?! I know.... good luck understanding that one....

Scared...

I'm scared for the summer. Yeah, I shouldn't be,... I know. I'm going to be working at camp. It has been my dream for ever to be able to work at camp! And I finally can! How awesome is that!!! Sad thing.... I don't have my friends there with me. I'm scared for maybe getting left out or something while I'm up there. Don't think I'm going to back out of it, because I'm not. I love camp. I'm just going to try to take it as an opportunity to focus on serving God... the awesome part is I get paid for serving God! How awesome is that. Of course that's not the main reason... money... lol... it's Jesus. All the way! woo-hoo! lol. I really hope to be able to see any of you come and visit me. I'm going to be needing the visit.

Other than that... I'm a little stressed about finals, but Bible study helped to take some of that away. We got to talk and it was fun. If anyone needs a funny story from that bible study, I've got one! lol

Holidays are coming up.... no holiday spirit for me, but that's just fine!

Cute... to... what!?!

Get away....

I want to get away. Right now. I want to leave. I think I'm going to go to Wisconsin. Yeah, that's were I'm going to go. I'm not going to tell my mom and one day I'm going to leave. That'll be nice. Not care if I get in so much trouble my mom calls the police. Ha! And I'm going to drive all the way up to Wisconsin. I'm going to go up to Camp Grow. I'm going to park my mom's van... lol... run to the middle of the field. And I'm going to lay there. It's going to be night too. I'm going to just lay there and look at the stars. I know there a bijillion places that I could do that, but I'd rather do that at camp than anywhere else. It's nice because there is a lake right there.... and it's just so pieceful. Camp doesn't feel like a real world.

Ya know, I don't like being confused... and I don't like not knowing what's going on.... that's not fun either. lol And I don't like not knowing what to do. So, I just want to get away from it all.