A long, long time ago

So, here I am. . . sitting in my dorm room and I'm all alone. I am all alone and I'm OK with that which is really odd for me because most of the time, when I'm alone, I feel broken and upset and completely unloved, but for once, I am alone and I'm OK with that.

As I'm sitting here, on the floor in my room all alone, I recall when I was always alone back in high school. I'd come home, do my homework, eat dinner, and have the rest of the night to myself. . . all alone and I was OK with that. Most of the time that I was all alone, I'd spend time reading my Bible, reflecting, and listening to Christian music. There were some times that I did not like the feeling of being alone. I'd think about going away to college and how I would always be spending time with people and I would never have to be alone again. To my surprise, I am all alone. I am completely undisturbed by everyone else on this campus and I am all alone.

I never really realized that in moments where I was all alone were the moments that I grew most in my relationship with God. In times where I was completely alone, I was at a high in my relationship with God because I realized that in times where I was "alone" I was relying on God to fulfill that area of my life. It is such a comforting feeling to be able to rely on God in times where you are alone because it is then that you become more comfortable with yourself and with God directing you towards where ever it is that he wants you to be.