I love weekends.

Procrastinating

I don't have school today because of parent teacher conferences and I don't know what to do. I have all of this time and I feel like I should be working on my extra credit for English. I don't need any extra credit for English though because presently I'm getting a 95 in the class, which is rounded to higher than an A. I feel like I should be doing it anyway so then I have extra points in case I do not do good on a next piece of graded work. Then, I have to work on a DBQ for US History, but I think I don't feel like it. I already wrote it, but I want to go back and make it longer and add more just in case. I also have Chapter 36 for US History to read, but I don't want to read it until next week so the information stays fresh in my mind. I don't have the test until next Friday.

I'm going crazy because I'm going to procrastinate!!!! Ahhh! It's so weird. I'm scared. lol I wish there was something were I could turn off the over-achieving-ness. Then, I wouldn't be worrying about not doing homework today. What am I saying!?!?! I need a break. I've got it... so here I go!

HA!

I have to say, I love being absolutely ridiculous! It's so much fun!!!

Woo-hoo! I can hold up 10 fingers for today! (I was almost about to say 10 hands. I'm not an alien!)

SCHOOL SPIRIT!

Decisions

I really don't like making decisions. I wish God always had all of my decisions made for me so then I wouldn't have to go through the hassle of making the decision and I would know that it'd be a good decision because God would be making it. If it was just like that, then I wouldn't be learning anything and instead I get to experience the good or bad consequences of making the decision lol. Also, I get to share with other people how it all goes. I think that I think about it too much. Some decisions... hmmm:

To leave for camp early or to leave later?

To talk to my mom about my dad and fix the relationship or to let my dad take care of it?

To start working on my seminar packet for school or to start working on my essay? lol.. I know it's stupid.

To go to school tomorrow or to go on the field trip tomorrow?

To say something or to say nothing?

Or lets just say, screw it and do whatever I think I should do and whatever I think is best for me and whatever God would probably choose.

the summer.. i wonder...

In case any of you didn't know, school work can be very long and boring and tiring and just plain stupid! Jeeze! I woke up today at 10:50am and I started on my history homework at about 11:30am. I took about an hour break for lunch and watched a movie. Then, I continued my homework and finished at 5:00pm. After spending about 6 hours or so on homework, I feel really exhausted and weak. I knew it was going to take that long, but I was hoping there would be some miracle and I'd all of a sudden have the ability to read 40 pages of US history in an hour.

But anyway, I've been thinking and I think that I'm really scared for this summer. I know I should be excited for camp because it's like a mission trip in Wisconsin and I get to get paid for serving God. It's just I know it's going to be hard. I know I'm going to miss a whole bunch of people like crazy. I know that I'm going to end up feeling really weak as the summer goes on because I stay inside most of the day working in the office and not getting very much sunlight. Also, I remember last summer when I was volunteering in the office, I lost my appetite and didn't eat as much. I also won't be able to interact with the campers as much during the day. On the bright side of it all, I get to make it possible for campers to come to camp and learn about God. I get to spend time with kids at breakfast, lunch, dinner, activites, devotions, and campfire. I'm the one who gets to talk to the kid's parents and work it out so that they know all of the information about camp and so that they can get their kid to come to camp. I liked working in the office though because I like to organize and I liked talking on the phone and making it possible for kids to come to camp! I'm excited for this summer all at the same time because every week at camp... a whole bunch of campers come to Christ and get to know about Jesus. So, I'm making it possible for little kids to learn about Jesus. Woo-hoo! lol Sometimes we need to make sacrifices when it comes to serving God, and so I'm doing that but I'm not saying that I'm upset for doing. I'm excited because you never know what God might have in store! Pretty much, I have no idea what the summer is going to be like but it's not in my hands, it's in God's hands.