Growing up

It is so weird growing up and getting older. It's like you have to take on all of these responsibilities. Some you're willing to take, while others not so much.

One thing that I've been surprised by is how much I can see myself growing up. I can't believe it. I never pictured this actually happening. Looking back on things in my life, it becomes more apparent to me why I had to go through the things I went through. I know in my previous blog, I talked about being alone and I never understood why I didn't have any friends, but now I do. I realize that that time in my life was so essential in shaping who I am now and me becoming more comfortable in Christ. Back in high school years, I had an idea of why I was going through those times of loneliness, but now I see it even more why I went through those things. It's comforting. I know then I would ask God what in the world He was doing and I'd pray for friends, but He was the one who was truly with me. It was all for His purpose that I went through those things.

Even now, I'm alone once again for the summer and yet again it's really difficult, but I know that it's all for His purpose in shaping me. I need to embrace Him while I go through this time of loneliness. Through this, it's become really difficult for me to be away from people that I'm close to, but I've realized that in times I'm alone, I have less distractions and I'll be able to focus more on still figuring out who God wants me to be.

Wow. Growing up is going to be so much fun!