Worst mood,.. ever!
Wow! Isn't this a surprise... Michelle is in a bad mood. I'm sorry.. I'm so exhausted from driving, from painting(myself, not the mess hall.. lol.. with rustic red!!!), I'm all sore from the painting, I have a head ache, I'm not going to do school work since I'm so tired, I'm missing camp already and everyone I got to see today, I'm not feeling so great overall with me, I don't feel like I've been a great friend to everyone, I've been so blah forever (sorry), and I'm just emotionally drained. I hate emotions. If I hate anything a lot, it's definitely emotions! I know one of the reasons God made emotions is because then we can worship him with all of our emotions and what not. But I don't like emotions. They mess you up BIG time. God also gave girls a lot of emotions.. way more than guys... haha.. you're lucky! I feel like I've just been doing everything wrong. I'm so frustrated with everything. I try to do things right, I try to make people happy, and I end up messing everything up.. I always do stuff the wrong way I guess. Sometimes, I don't think people realize how hard I try to just make them happy or show that I appreciate them. Ugh!!! Just ugh!!! Or sometimes people don't know how I pour my emotions into it. I don't like emotions!!!!! They are sooo stupid!!! People don't realize how easy their lives are such as with family stuff and friends. I live so far away from my friends!!! My parents are not that great.. and when they want to yell, they'll yell at me like I'm the other parent. It's so hard for me to get to church. Sorry guys, but I'm not going to be able to get to youth group stuff really anymore. My dad said he's not getting me anymore. I know it's not a good attitude for me to say that, but gas is crazy and sometimes it's hard to go out since I get so much homework. You'll have to move on and find another Michelle. Everything is just plain out difficult. It seems everything the past year or so or whatever, everything I do or have happen gets messed up. I need to just go...............
posted by michelleesexton @ 7:10 PM
3 Comments:
At 2:00 PM, September 12, 2005,
bethmarie said…
There will never be "another michelle" cuz you're my best friend and I love you with all my heart. <3 Cheer up kiddo cuz you are SUCH an amazing girl really, and you've got such a strong faith and everything. Thats just one of the many things I love about you. Things will work out because God has a plan for you and it's not to never come back to Deer Creek! We will help you to get out here sometimes, at least I will and i'm sure i'm not the only one. Pray and look up cuz God hears you even when you don't talk.aaaaaaaaaannd Laughabledorksrmichaeljacksonwannabez will not be the same without you either.. it'll just be dorksaremichaeljacksonwannabz. Now that's no fun. Gotta have the laughs. :) We need to talk sometime ok? You need to TALK cuz it'll help I promise. I love you michelle long.. you rock. <3
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At 3:20 PM, September 13, 2005,
Mandy said…
My darling Michelle,
Lift all your worries, frustrations, and anxiety to God. He knows how to take care of you. Accept that you can't make everyone happy, and you especially can't help people if you aren't taking care of your own needs. God will provide a way for things to work out. Trust in Him! There's no one like you, and your here to stay. You've got the love of the creator of the universe on your side! chin up! *breaks into Charlotte Web song*
At 12:02 PM, September 14, 2005,
bethmarie said…
oh by the way.. mandy told me that in 8th grade with the whole family thing, about taking care of yourself first, and she's right, you need to. It helps a lot when you do. ;)
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