Don't read if you don't want to listen to problems

I'm just so frustrated. I don't like it at all. I just want to say something, and just yell, but I can't. I can't.. because yelling isn't the answer. haha. I think there has to be some exceptions though.

James 1:19-20 "My dear brothers and sisters, be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry.Your anger can never make things right in God's sight"

.. Okay, so yelling doesn't have exceptions, but calmly talking to someone can be better than yelling... I guess. Even if I try to talk to someone calmly.. they tend to yell at me and tell me I'm wrong. Either way, someone usually yells. Isn't that annoying though?

I want to calmly talk to someone and tell them I'm annoyed with them. But, nope. Can't do! Sorry. And it's all because that's done and when it's done you're not allowed to be angry or upset. It's not my rules, it's theres.

I'm dumb for even still caring, but what can I say!?! I'm a very caring person, and when someones not acting very caring back to me, I tend to want to know why. I wish I wasn't as caring, but then, I wouldn't be who I am now.

To add toppings to that..(haha).. my dad called. I don't know what to do. I still don't want to talk to him really. I know I should be like Jesus, forgiving. Don't you have to ask for forgiveness inorder to be forgiven though? You can't just forget everything that happened and not ask for forgiveness because if you don't ask for forgiveness then, you might continue on in what you're doing that isn't right. That's how I look at it.

I'm sorry to go on about my problems, but I figured you wouldn't mind since we're called to "Share each other's troubles and problems, and in this way obey the law of Christ." (Galatians 6:2) If you have any comments, or any advice, feel welcome to leave a comment!