Awesome! and yet.. confused!

School has been pretty awesome! It's fun when people actually like to talk to me.. I guess my smiling and laughter makes me seem like a fun person to talk to. It's also awesome that lastnight I was talking to one of my pals and God definitely used me and I said some pretty awesome things. It's always fun when God uses you. I had to look back at what I said because I didn't even really remember. God just just pouring words out and it was awesome. God lets you use your past experiences to help others out all of the time. On the other hand, I still haven't been doing so great. I am, but then I'm not. I guess it's stuff that I don't know how to handle. It's tearing me apart and I'm too scared to try and face it.