Stupid, stupid, and oh yeah! stupid....

Yesterday, my dad was suppose to come and pick cheryl and I up in EP. Well, he told us he didn't have enough money and he got so angry and blah blah blah.. and he just yelled. He told Cheryl he wasn't coming to pick us up at all! Well, he was being a jerk, and I talked to him and told him I understand that he has no job and no money.. and then I forgot I was suppose to call him back and he said to call him back soon because he was leaving... i didn't know where he was leaving to go. But Phil was oh so nice! and he came and picked cheryl and i up and took me to my ortho appointment. While we were at the ortho's, my little sister called and told me our dad came to the house to pick us up. Funny how he didn't tell us he changed his mind and decided to come and get us. Unfortunately, I can't read his mind through the phone! Woops! lol... so yeah.. and then later that night, my dad got arrested for the whole not paying child support deal-y-o! The next day.. lots of stuff happened, and my grandparents are paying for the child support, $7,000, it should have been, $16,000, but that's too much. So that's the story. My dad was a retard though and he lied to my grandparents and told them he had a job, when he really doesn't, and he told my grandparents he was paying child support and having a hard time.. so they kept on passing money to him like candy. Before we left NC, my grandparents gave him $6,000!!!! And when they asked him what happened to that money when my mom and dad were at court today... he said he was just paying bills or something with that money. My dad is the biggest liar that I know right now!!! I'm sorry if none of you wanted to know this. It's just what has been going on in my life and why I've been pretty stressed! Thanks for the prayers everyone! Or please do pray for it all!!!

Today's theme is Beautiful

It's weird because I made that one post earlier about the beautiful skit and today I dealt with someone not really feeling beautiful. I was out shopping with my mom and sisters, Cheryl and Kelsey, and her friend. Kelsey was having problems finding jeans that fit her and my mom said to her, "You can get a bigger size or lose some weight." I thought that was the meanest thing my mom could tell her. My litter sister is thin!!!! Especially at my little sister's age, a parent shouldn't be saying that. At Kelsey's age, I felt like I was fat and actually dealt with some eatting problems. It's not cool of my mom to say that. My mom grew up always being told not to eat too much because she would get fat like her sisters, so my mom starved herself and stuff. My mom also told my sister to exercise to lose weight.. and my sister is young! She doesn't need to be exercising. It's so stupid. After my mom said that my little sister got upset and was being a poo head the rest of the day pretty much. My mom later told my sister, Kelsey, that she wanted to see what she got from the store and she wouldn't show her. So, I said to my mom, "The reason she is being so mean to you is because earlier you said to her she should lose weight." And my mom said, "What!? She should if she wants to fit in size zero jeans. She should do sit ups or something." And I said to my mom, "You should love her for the way she looks. She's beautiful the way she is." My mom didn't say anything after that. She just walked away. For me, I've just realized that I'm beautiful because God created me. I'm unique! There is no one else that looks exactly like me. To say that you're ugly is being bogus to God. Do you think God creates ugly things!? No way! The only reason people think there aren't beautiful is because of the stupid media. If all girls in magazines were heavy, everyone would think they would need to gain wait to look beautiful. Also.... not everything in magazines are real!!! They use computers and all of that other stuff to mess around with the picture and make the person look 'perfect.' God is perfect and he's created all of us beautiful people. Be proud if you were bigger jeans than everyone else.... lol.... it makes you more unique!!!!! I'm proud if I'm heavier than my mom, my sisters... it's me! I mean.. I don't care if I even wear a bigger pants size! God has made me me.... and I don't mean to be full of myself,.. but i'm confident.. and I'm beautiful. All of you are!!! Something else for some of you girls... ya know how sometimes a guy will tell you that you're beautiful.. and you'll be stubborn and be like, "No way." or "What are you talking about?!" I don't know.. there are so many responses!!! But ya know what I mean. That's stupid to tell a guy that you don't think you're beautiful.. because you are just telling them that they're wrong. If it's what a guy thinks, let him think that, but don't tell him that his thoughts are wrong. I read that once in a book, and I was like "Duh Michelle!!!" lol.. sometimes we don't realize the obvious. The whole point of this blog, we are beautiful creations of God!!!! Woo-hoo! Go all of us being beautiful!!!

We are beautiful!

I miss camp so much!!! This skit was the greatest one too! Well.... i loved it because it was like... us being confident and what not and saying what we thought was beautiful about ourselves. Mine was obvious. lol... my laugh... duh!!! We are beautiful creations of God!!! woo-hoo! Go God!

Now, who is this!?!

Tonight I got to watch the Ring 2 with my sister. That movie is so creepy!!! I swear I thought I was going to pee my pants it was so scary!!!! It was funny around the end because Simara was in the well... and I said to Cheryl, "Oh no! I think Simara is about to go Spiderman on us!!!????" And sure enough, she did.. and it was so scary!!! You want to like hide your face.. but then still see what's going on. By the end of the movie, Cheryl was like, "I hated that Spiderman thingy." And I was like, "Yeah, me too!" Hilarious!

I'm sorry, but it's time for Michelle to vent a little bit. I can't stand it how you think you know someone, like you get to spend so much time with them and you think you get to know them for who they really are. Until all of a sudden, you definitely don't know them. They turn into someone you can't believe you thought you actually knew!!!!! I can't stand it! It's like one thing and they completely change. Why does it have to be like that!? Am I suppose to be learning some lessons here? All I can do is see the difference between the first time I met that person and who that person is now. I'm sorry, do I know you?

National Michelle's Dad Be a Poop Day!

Today was pretty good... until I got home. I called my dad because my retainer is breaking, and I needed to call my orthodonist to make an appointment and my dad started talking to me.. and he told me that he didn't think that he had enough money to drive to my house today and take me to Matteson. As ya know, gas is expensive and he said he didn't have the gas money and stuff. As you all know, in Exodus 20:12 it says, "“ Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long upon the land which the LORD your God is giving you." In some other versions, it says be obedient. So, anywho, my dad started to ask me for money and I felt bad because I had to lie to him because my mom told me not to tell him that I have money because she doesn't want me to give him money that she gives me because it's like my mom giving him money, when he's the one who needs to give her money. So, yeah, I told him I didn't have any money. Then, he hung up on me. A few minutes later, he calls me back, and he asked me again if I had money and I told him the truth this time and said that my mom doesn't want me giving him money. Once again, my dad got angry and hung up on me. This is so hard to do. I have to be obedient to my mom and not give my dad my money that she gives me and then I have to be obedient to my dad.. some how.. and tell him the truth when my mom wants me to lie and my dad wants me to use my money for him.. so should I be obedient and do that? It's so hard and confusing. I don't know which one is right and which one is wrong sometimes. I use to lie all of the time for my mom, but a while ago, I gave up on that and started telling the truth to my dad. It always gets me in a big mess with him and then he starts yelling at me like he's yelling at my mom.. and no matter what, I'm always in a big mess. It's like one big circle, that I shouldn't even be in........ LET ME OUT!!! lol

The big dipper!

This is so sad! I was on my way home from bible study and I looked out the car window. I saw the big dipper! It's so sad... because the last time I saw the big dipper.. I was at camp! The sadder thing is that I could only see the handle. I couldn't really see the whole thing, but then i could kinda see some of the corners of it. It was sad! I miss camp. The sky looks so much better in WI in Markesan than in Chicago area with the city lighting up the sky. Something that was 0OOoooo so lame of me today is in US History Ap, we had to answer the question: "If you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would you be?" and the question was definitely talking about attraction type of places, but I completely ignored it and put Markesan, WI.... camp! lol.. I'm so bad!... i love it! Okay! Funny story!!!! They should have like music play whenever I said something like, "Funny story!!!!" kinda like mail time!... but anywho.. funny story... sometimes at night, when I'm trying to sleep I sleep with my hand next to my head on my pillow. And I have that glow in the dark CIY bracelet. Sometimes I'll open my eyes and be like, "What is that bright light!?!?!" and then.. I'll remember I have a glow in the dark bracelet on and that it's on my wrist and that's my wrist next to me. I do that like every night! I always wonder what that bright light is... I remind myself like every night! lol.... i'm such a lame.. time to go do homework! chao!.. that's how you spell it right? lol

Bored.

I'm really bored. I'm bored with everything. I'm kinda bored of school.. and I'm bored of evergreen park.. i'm bored of here and there and everywhere! wow, I'm turning into Dr. Seuss. lol And I don't know how to spell it so sorry all of you english teachers who know! I'm just really bored. I've sent out a bigillion emails and no one has written me back... sorry, I'm just complaining! Nothing interesting has been happening. I don't want this to be a dull school year, but I have a feeling it might be. Ya know what that means!? It means, that sucks!

Bathroom!

I was thinking of something funny.

Okay, what if someone put up an away message and it said something like, going to the poddy or bathroom or whatever. And then the person doesn't come back until like an hour or so later! lol that'd be so funny!!! In the bathroom for an hour.. that's insane and smelly!!! Ha! lol.. isn't that hilarious!?

Yummy!

Michelle loves bread! Especially the kind that takes 4 HOURS!.. to make! Ha! My dad gave me the car today for the whole entire day! I couldn't believe it! How horrible!? Ha!.. that's funny too!!!!

je finis!

Who finished the bible today!? What!? Michelle did!? Yep! I sure did! I am now someone who has finished the bible! woo-hoo! So, have any of you heard that story how in Russia, as a compliment to the chef, they burp. I asked the Russian exchange student today about it. At first I had to try to tell her what burp meant in english. I tried to get one of my fellow classmates, Alicia, to burp but, she couldn't do it at the time but the Russian girl got what she was doing so yeah. When she realized what I was saying.. she was like what!? Who told you that!? Unfortunately guys, it's not true. It would have been funny if it was... what a bummer. The Russian exchange student got to see me go on one of my laughing attacks.. i guess you could call it lol.. and she had no idea why I was laughing,.. but that's okay because i didn't either. Well, i hope your all doing dandy!

Lets see....

Today! I got to go to Denny's! And it was fun! lol.. my dad gave me the car again. I don't know what to do about that. I'm driving illegally! My dad was talking to me about it and I'm just like, "Yeah, I need to get my license!" and he's like, "I was just thinking of continuing with what we're doing! It doesn't cost anything." And I'm like, "That's illegal!" I'm really sorry everyone for being illegal. I can't help it! I mean, my dad won't drive me himself and since I can drive he makes me do it. I need a ride to church, I have to take myself. He's lazy! So.. he has me doing illegal things because he's lazy and won't take me.. so I have to do it myself. When I was at Denny's I put my retainer in my purse and I bent it up really bad. I actually bent the crap out of it. lol.. .what if I said that to the russian exchange student at my school? She's be so confused. Ha!

"Um.. I like this book, that's what I wanna be when I grow up! well, not psychology, a psychologist!"... I had to put this quote in here. Beth said it earlier and i could not stop laughing! It was soo funny!

So, you know what's really good!? When you tell the truth! I've been lying to myself lately lol. But I finally realized I was being stupid and I told myself the truth! Or admitted it! No more keeping lies behind me! Ha! It's more not fun when you know people are lying to themselves or they are just being liars. It's so complicated! but I understand! Can't get anything by me! I'm so silly!

Well... I think I'm done now! lol

Awesome! and yet.. confused!

School has been pretty awesome! It's fun when people actually like to talk to me.. I guess my smiling and laughter makes me seem like a fun person to talk to. It's also awesome that lastnight I was talking to one of my pals and God definitely used me and I said some pretty awesome things. It's always fun when God uses you. I had to look back at what I said because I didn't even really remember. God just just pouring words out and it was awesome. God lets you use your past experiences to help others out all of the time. On the other hand, I still haven't been doing so great. I am, but then I'm not. I guess it's stuff that I don't know how to handle. It's tearing me apart and I'm too scared to try and face it.

First Day of School! Oh Boy!

I can't believe I made it! Hey, everyone! I made it through the first day of school! It was pretty good. I have a lot of people in all of my classes that I know. It's nice when everyone's nice to you because you have a fun type of personality. Oh man, you all should have seen me in my french class. I'm really close with some of the people in my friend class and I was laughing... a whole lot. lol. My teacher usually has to tell me to stop laughing.. but then she starts laughing at me.. and it's like one big laugh fest. I love it! And then everyone laughs. I have a Russian girl in my french class and I got to talking to her today. She's really nice and I feel bad because she's trying to get used to english. I was talking to her about photography and I said, "It's cool that you are taking photography." And she said, "Oh, yeah, sure!" Or something like that. Then I realized that she was probably taught that cool means cold lol. So, she probably translated it as It's cold that your taking photography. lol, that made me laugh.. like i was talking to her and started to laugh because I realized she probably didn't understand. I have to teach her some slang. Sounds like a plan! I'm really hoping that this year at school I'll be a light to everyone and shine so much that God will definitely show. Pray for me to be like that guys! I want to be able to be known more and more as someone madly in love with Christ! lol. I'm already known as Jesus' homeboy to some.. or churchie lol. Hope all is well everyone! Chow!

The Fight Song

This is my first time putting lyrics on my blog. I love Sanctus Real and I love this song. There are so many of their songs that I can definitely relate to right now. Here it is: I'm sorry for what I said about you
Will you accept my apology?
I am sorry
Hey, now what am I to do?
I'd better think twice before I make my move
'Cause last time I didn't think it through
Don't know where it's going to go
Don't know what we're going to do
And hey, now what am I to say?
My foolish words got in the way of us being friends
Wake up, make up, can we get along again?
I don't really want to fight over something that's really nothing?
It doesn't matter
I don't really want to scar your heart with words that hurt you
I won't hurt you
Did you feel all right
When you hung me out to dry?
Everybody knew
When you put it on the six o'clock story on the nightly news
Now it's time to think
Through this mess of words we made
Tongues are hard to tame
Powerful as politics, sharper than a razor blade
Did you really want to fight over something that's really nothing?
It doesn't matter
Did you really want to scar my heart with words that hurt me?
Don’t hurt me
I don't really want to cry over issues
Wet tissues stick to my shoes
We can't take back words we've spoken
But I'm hoping you'll forgive me
I don't care about what you said about me
Can we agree to disagree?
I am sorry
Did you really want to fight over something that's really nothing?
It doesn't matter
Did you really want to scar my heart with words that hurt me?
Don’t hurt me
I don't really want to cry over issues
Wet tissues stick to my shoes
We can't take back words we've spoken
But I'm hoping you'll forgive me
I'm hoping you'll forgive me
I'm hoping you'll forgive me

Michelle's funny stories!

So, I've decided to update you all on my funny stories that some of you may have heard or not heard. Let me tell you, they are hilarious! 1.) When I was in North Carolina, my grandparents were talking and they told my sisters and I that they have Goosebusters! lol.. get it, like Ghostbusters! Isn't that hilarious!? Who ya gonna call when there's too many goose!? GOOSEBUSTERS! lol 2.) This one is soo funny! So, my cousin's husband was letting their dog, Darla, run around in a field, and so Darla goes over to a car and a cats under it. The cat runs out from under the car and Darla grabs the cat in her mouth and takes off in a run to the lake. Darla jumps in the lake with the cat in her mouth and she's starts to dunk the cats head repeatedly in the lake. Before you know it, the cat was dead. The next day, my cousins husband sees signs go up around where he lives that say "Have you seen Muffin?" with a picture of a cat on it. lol. He started to take the signs down lol. Sorry cat lovers. lol but that's hilarious! 3.) I went to a sea food restaurant, and I got flounder!!!! Like from the Little Mermaid! lol.. flounder! Ha! And then I had hush puppies! Isn't that funny!? Flounder, like from the Little Mermaid!? lol 4.) I know a few people have heard this one. lol, i'm such a silly goose. I was getting gum from my purse.. lol.. and I threw my gum in my purse and i was about to put the wrapper in my mouth!!! lol... and then I was like, "Oh wait, that's paper!" And I reached in my purse and got the gum! lol.. hilarious! 5.) When I was in South Carolina, my grandparents were driving us through a place that a rich minister had owned that got in a lot of trouble and we turned the corner and there was a camel!!! I wanted to pet the camel so bad! It was soo funny looking.. and it was funny that it was there! lol.. i laughed forever! So, now that you've read these hilarious stories.. it's time to vote for your favorite! I'm such a lame but, it's why you all love me! lol. If you don't vote.. you better watch it.. but i'm only joking... lol.. no, if these don't satisfy your laughter or being funny-ish.. leave a funnier one in the comments of one with me! I know there's funny ones that I've told you before or things that I've laughed at with you, or funny moments we've all shared together! So, leave one! lol... i love you all! You all make me laugh.. which is really hard right!? lol

talk about being creeped out

And there is something that I wanted to tell you. Michell you are the most beautiful girl I have ever met. You have a great personality and the single best smile and laugh I have ever heard in my life. I just wanted you to know how beautiful and truly wonderful you are. Because most girls like that have no clue how truly wounderful they are. I miss and love you soooooooooooooo much.bye
lol.. I got this in a email from someone I know. Don't worry guys, they don't have my blog so they won't see that I have it on here. They really creeeped me out, so I just ignored that email and wrote them back on a different email. Michelle is very creeped out right now!!! I can't tell you all who it is but, they creep me out alone, not including the email. Including the email, I'm very creeped out lol. What should I do?!

North Carolina!

Yep, I'm in North Carolina right now... and it is h-o-t! I miss everyone sooo sooo soo much! It stinks when I'm going to get back home and have to go to school. Thanks everyone for the prayers. I think I'm feeling a tad bit better. lol. So, funny story, I drove the whole way down here.. yeah about 12 hours, all me. lol, and another funny story, I was eatting tons and tons of food at my grandparents.. because I miss home cooking after being at camp forever, and so I said to my sister, Kelsey, I'm feeding two people. Me and myself. I'm such a lame but, I thought it was soo funny! Guys, I miss you all so much, just please keep on commenting because I love the comments from you all! I need to go now!!!! so, chow!

Dream to Nightmare

So, this is how it's like coming home from camp. It's like I was dreaming and just in such an awesome place surrounded by christians. Now, I'm back to the nightmare.

Leaving again

I swear, this whole summer.. i've been doing nothing but unpacking and repacking. So, first... i packed for camp and then i came back from camp, unpacked, and packed for CIY. Then, when I got back from CIY, i unpacked and repacked for camp. Now, I just got back from camp, and I have to unpack and then repack for NC. Once NC is over I have to go back to school. Asside from all of that, I'm back to feeling how i use to feel... and it's not fun. I don't feel like anybody.

I AM HOME

It sucks being home. lol Everythings just kinda like blowing up in my face again. There's been a lot of that lately. It's going to be even more tough dealing with everything when i'm not at camp. Camp helps me a lot to just get away. I get to get away to NC though. School isn't going to be fun at all. I get so depressed when school starts. It's like the same thing everyday,.. with no really good friends.. and it's upsetting. Winter is going to be tough this year. I get so depressed around then. I'm really going to need God through all of this. It's going to be hard reading the bible with all of this homework from ap classes. Pray for me all. I'm scared for this school year! God, you can take me now. lol

Homesick

I can't wait until I get to go home. I'm upset about leaving camp of course, but I just miss everyone back at home so much. I've said this before, but I miss my youth group a lot. Despite the small, few problems we have, we're always there for each other to help out or at least for me make me laugh when i'm not feeling so great. I need some of that now lol. Lots of things have been going on this week. My parents were being such poo heads to me. They make me so angry sometimes. I talked to Paul about it and he just told me that I need to submit to my parents and obey them. It says something like that in Exodus 20:11 or something like that,.. i think. Lastnight was also very hard because the relationship between EJ and I ended and it was just really hard. God has us leading in different directions, and so we just need to be there for one another as friends. It's hard to say but, God wants it that way... and I'm going God's way, not my way. I'm excited that I get to see my grandparents soon too. I haven't seen them in over a year, and they're getting old, so God might take them soon. They're lucky they get to go to heaven soon. I want to go too lol. I'll be like, "take me with you." lol. I'm homesick for heaven. That's what I am. God's still at work though. I get to come back next year already and work in the office. God's using me at camp next year already lol. I need prayers guys, so please pray for me! Merci beaucoup! That means, thank you very much in french. No silly, it doesn't mean, thank you very much in french, it means, thank you very much. I'm so silly but, that's why i'm unique.