Trick of Treat?

Woop-de-doo! It's Halloween. I think this has got to be the worst Halloween ever.

This is the first time, ever, that I'm not trick or treating with anyone. I want to go spend time with friends in my home neighborhood soooo badly, but nope! Instead, I get to sit at home and do absolutely nothing. I'm too mad to even open the door and give other trick or treaters candy. This really stinks. I need my own car so I can drive out and go trick or treating or help out with the trunk or treat. Nobody is home... and I'm just here by myself doing nothing!

This is just straight out depressing. To top that off, no one has time to talk to me.

Fred

Everyone! Pray! I'm really kinda scared. I wrote my dad a letter. I think I'm actually going to give it to him too... and it's weird that I haven't seen him in so long. I'm trying to write him a letter to hopefully motivate him to stop drinking and doing drugs... and all of that not cool stuff. I'm really hoping that he'll listen to me because I'm his daughter. I told him, in the letter, straight out that I'm not going to his house if he has alcohol there and that other not so good stuff. What a poop?! Please pray for stuff with my silly dad.

Just to inform you all... honey combs.. like the kind that the bees are on.. are really different from the cereal. I found that out yesterday! lol... I'm serious!!!

Oh! And that reminds me! RIP Fred. Our precious Bee.. that I didn't care about and killed with a water bottle... and I missed when I went to go hit it. Hehe.... I'm sorry Jordan, you can't make out with Fred anymore. Haha.. I'm such a silly goose!

Me? Smart?

Today was parent teacher conferences at my school. I didn't expect teachers to say all of this good stuff about me, but they did. My teacher, Mr. G, signed a thing for my mom saying, "If Michelle does not get a 4 or a 5 on her US History AP exam, I will give you $80." I really don't think I'm that smart. He said I have a photogenic memory and he said that I have good analyzing skills. I know I'm good at analyzing but memory, I don't think so. Well, maybe. lol.. also, I bet Sarah $10 that I wouldn't get a 4 or a 5 on the US History AP exam.. and she bet me $10 that I would. Mr. G already said that he's going to write a lot of recommendation to all of the different colleges for me. He also told my mom that I would be able to get into IV League schools(I'm not sure if that's how it's supposed to look spelled.. but for those of you who don't know what that is, it's the top colleges). He thinks I'd be able to make it into some top colleges!?!?!?! I don't think I could or want to.

It's always been my dream to go to a Christian College. I mean, I don't care how much money I make.. at all! I just want to do what I want to do. That makes me scared if I could make it into some top colleges. What if God doesn't want me to go to a Christian college? What if he wants me to go to the big colleges that all of the smart people go to? That makes me scared. I don't want to drop my dreams of going to a Christian College and go to one that's definitely not. God could probably use me as a witness to a lot of people in the not Christian colleges ... but I would rather be at a Christian College.. studying God's word.

This is something I'm going to really need to pray about. Sometimes people need to drop what they want to do.. to do what God wants them to do. God already knows what he wants to do with my life. I just hope that I realize it and take the plunge.

Poohead moms

My mom is a poohead! So, I was all planning on getting my license today and what not.. except lastnight my mom discovered that she lost my social security card!!! I'm so upset with her. I really really really wanted to get my license, and I'm sure most of you knew that. I was so excited because I was going to be able to finally drive people around instead of people always driving me. I feel bad for using people for rides sometimes. I was so excited to finally be able to do something for people, but nope! Sorry, I can't because my mom LOST my social security card... and she's just blah! I know, I shouldn't be talking about my mom. It's just I'm upset! What a poop!

I just can't stand it when I look forward to something and then it gets taken away from me. This happens all of the time. I can't expect things to go my way, they have to go God's way. Sometimes, I'm just really stubborn! Ugh! Just Ugh!!! It reminds me of that song Blessed be the name of the Lord... and the part, "You give and take away."... it'd be nice if there was just giving.. lol.. but then we wouldn't get anywhere.

In conclusion, I have to wait a week now to get my license. I'm not very patient. I was also planning on using the car this weekend, and I was actually already given permission to, but now I can't. P. S. I got another blog: www.laughingisfun.blogspot.com

don't understand

No offense to all boys. But why do most of you have to be such big jerks? I don't get it. Lastnight, I was talking to two guy friends of mine and they just lost it on me. Their girlfriends had broken up with them for the same reasons and they got angry at me for it? I'm sorry, was I the one that broke up with them? They were telling me how all girls are the same and they're all jerks. They were being such jerks to me, just because I'm a girl. I'm a girl and I'm proud of it!

The reason their girlfriends broke up with them was because they said they were too clingy. So, I tried to share with guy number one about a relationship I had with guy number two and how he seemed clingy in the relationship. I used that example to share my experiences and how I learned from the situation. From the situation I learned that if a girl or a guy is being too clingy, sometimes they have to back off and let the guy or girl come to them. Sort of like playing hard to get, so in that case, the girl or guy you're dating won't think you're too clingy. Sometimes both are clingy in the relationship, so it balances out. Then, guy number two started talking to me and saying I was spreading rumors about him because I told guy number one how I thought he seemed clingy in the relationship I had with him. It was like a bomb was dropped and I was to blame for it. He called me a hipocrite and wouldn't stop telling me how mean I am. Both guy number one and guy number two started pouring all of their anger on me and getting angry at me like I was their ex girlfriends. Guy number one kept on telling me how all girls are the same. I really don't think they are. In all of my past relationships, I've learned to take all of the relationships and see what I learned from all of them. God uses every one of my past relationships to teach me something new. It's pretty awesome. It changes how I act in new relationships.

I was simply sharing what I had learned with guy number two to guy number one and guy number two viewed it as me spreading rumors and mean and a hipocrite. It really upsetted me a lot. Something I didn't like at all was how guy number two was bringing up my last relationship and things just haven't been good with that. Guys can be such jerks. (I know, not all guys!) It seems that the guys who I've recently been talking to or wanting to talk are doing nothing, but making me think I'm a mean person and not cared about. I don't think I'm a mean person and I know I'm cared about. Why do guys have to bring me down though? To inform them, it doesn't work. I don't get brought down easily. Haha.

2 Cor. 1:4 "He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When others are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us."

Don't read if you don't want to listen to problems

I'm just so frustrated. I don't like it at all. I just want to say something, and just yell, but I can't. I can't.. because yelling isn't the answer. haha. I think there has to be some exceptions though.

James 1:19-20 "My dear brothers and sisters, be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry.Your anger can never make things right in God's sight"

.. Okay, so yelling doesn't have exceptions, but calmly talking to someone can be better than yelling... I guess. Even if I try to talk to someone calmly.. they tend to yell at me and tell me I'm wrong. Either way, someone usually yells. Isn't that annoying though?

I want to calmly talk to someone and tell them I'm annoyed with them. But, nope. Can't do! Sorry. And it's all because that's done and when it's done you're not allowed to be angry or upset. It's not my rules, it's theres.

I'm dumb for even still caring, but what can I say!?! I'm a very caring person, and when someones not acting very caring back to me, I tend to want to know why. I wish I wasn't as caring, but then, I wouldn't be who I am now.

To add toppings to that..(haha).. my dad called. I don't know what to do. I still don't want to talk to him really. I know I should be like Jesus, forgiving. Don't you have to ask for forgiveness inorder to be forgiven though? You can't just forget everything that happened and not ask for forgiveness because if you don't ask for forgiveness then, you might continue on in what you're doing that isn't right. That's how I look at it.

I'm sorry to go on about my problems, but I figured you wouldn't mind since we're called to "Share each other's troubles and problems, and in this way obey the law of Christ." (Galatians 6:2) If you have any comments, or any advice, feel welcome to leave a comment!

Let me just say...

If you could make someone talk to you.... would you?

Over!!

Midterms are over!! I think I can stop holding my breath and start breathing now. What a relief! It's nice when you can get a D+ on a midterm, but still be getting an A+ in the class. Block scheduling rocks!!! I don't think I really have anything silly to say at the moment. Ha! One of my friends was writting an essay on Chicagoese... I don't know if that's how you spell it, but for the whole entire essay, she accidentally wrote Chicagoeast... lol.. what a silly goose!! A fun verse I read the other day, 2 Corinthians 5:13 "If it seems that we are crazy, it is to bring glory to God. And if we are in our right minds, it is for your benefit. "

Ready!? Go!!!

As soon as you read this, pray that God provide some fast healing power for me because I feel really sick, and i've got midterms tomorrow!! AHHH!!! I'm so scared!! I can't study because I don't feel good and I can't focus! I'm terrified for midterms. So, if you can pray for me... because I'm not feeling so hot!!! kay!?

Sorry For Your Loss

I'm sad to say. But today, a restaurant passed away. Yeah, it was my most favoritest restaurant ever!!! It's FAZOLI'S!!! It's gone, it's gone for good in Matteson. No more, notta.. none.. it's gone!!!! I'm so upset... I want to go and cry because it's gone!!! We drove all the way out there from Evergreen Park to eat there to find out it's CLOSED!!! Done! Gone! No more ordering tons of breadsticks or getting free ones. No more turkey submarino sandwiches in Matteson. This is soo sad! I started going there weekly in 7th grade. We would go to Fazoli's and get 3 dozen breadsticks. Now I'll only be able to eat Fazoli's when I go up to camp in Fond du Lac. Sigh.. isn't that sad!?!?! I've decided the Fazoli's had to close down because their main customers (aka Chery and Michelle and Sarah and Mandy and everyone that goes with us) weren't able to come as much because someones stupid dad had to go out and be stupid. LOL. I'm a genius. In conclusion, I want Fazoli's but it's no longer there for me... Isn't that upsetting!?! No more italian fast food in Matteson... ever!!!!......

Have I?

Sometimes, I put things on my blog that I think are funny. Are they funny to were they seem like a joke? If they are, I never noticed!!! lol! Funniest thing happened today though... I was going back to my grandmothers to drop her off and we saw a gay couple walking down the street. It was soo funny! One of the guys was dressed like a guy. The other guy.. oh my goodness.. he had on black high healed shoes and to top it off he had some make up on. They were walking down the street smiling and holding each other. I started laughing when I saw it too. Haha. I think I saw some guys dressed like girls at the grocery store too lastnight. They looked like guys to me. So I saw some guys dressed like girls too. lol

Memory Lane

Memories, memories, memories.

So, the other day I got to looking at some old notes that I have stored away in some shoe boxes of mine. I'm so bad. I had 16 letters, from one piece of mail, that I got a long time ago and I didn't read them all until lastnight. They are from.. like... 3 years ago. I'm just really dumb and stupid I guess. I never realized how much this person liked me... and I just avoided them.. and left them behind like they meant nothing to me. I was a jerk! I guess girls can be jerks too. lol. They wrote in almost every single letter how I was always on their mind and they could never stop thinking of me. 16 letters.. and most of them were written on the same day.. or within the same week. That's insane.. and at the end of every letter, they drew a heart and put Michelle and ______ forever. I treated them so badly. How stupid was that? At the time.. I was just confused and thought it would just make things better.. but I only messed it up.

I love going through boxes or my last diary. It's so much fun going through memory lane. lol. I have all of my letters organized... all the letters that I received this year from camp.. I have that organized. Ha! I'm such a loser. For camp this summer, for my award, I got best laugh and cheerful heart.

I was looking back on my diary too at how I would say one thing that I wasn't going to do or told myself I wasn't going to do.. and I'd turn around and do it. That's stupid. I looked back on a story someone once told me. This is how it goes.... There was a little boy who really really really wanted this ball from the toy store. He begged his father, every day he went to the toy store, for that ball. Until finally, his father got him a ball, but it was even better than the one that he asked for. Sometimes you ask God for something you really want, and He'll turn around and give you something even better... I love how that works.. lol. I'm just praying for that something to come around soon....... but patience is the key... something I need to work on... it's funny that I say patience is that key.. when in the Bible it says faith is the key.. so faith is the key guys! "So that's why faith is the key! God's promise is given to us as a free gift." Romans 4:16

What's up with that!?!

Seriously, no, what's up with that?

Have any of you learned about how if you hear something and you're not sure if it's true, you should go and confront the person or ask them the truth? Go to the source and get the truth. It's plain simple knowledge... come on.. duh. I know, most of you already know this, but sometimes it's good to hear it again. Don't spread rumors, and if you don't know if what you heard is true or not, go to the source.. and get the truth. Good job. Way to be a genius!

Okay, I have a friend of mine who told me that he heard a lot of sorts of things that happened. The thing is, he won't tell me any of the things that he heard to clear it up. I don't understand. He tells me how he heard lots of stories that involve me, and when I ask him to tell me the stories so I can clear them up... he won't tell me. Does that make any sense? I mean, come on. Note to everyone: If you don't want someone to know something or if you don't want to tell anyone anything.. don't bring it up. It's that easy. If you have promised to keep a secret and you randomly bring it up and then don't tell anything about it.. that's just stupid. It's like you're teasing someone that you know something, but you're not going to tell them. It's stupid guys. Come on, come on, come on! lol
James 1:19 "My dear brothers and sisters, be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry."

Rumors are soo stupid! Really.. ya don't need 'em!

Other than that... je te manque...

Romans 15:17

"So it is right for me to be ENTHUSIASTIC! about all Christ Jesus has done through me in my service to God."

Favorite time of Day

My most favorite time of day is at night.

At night, everything is just a lot of fun. Ha, in a funny way, you can't see everyones faces because it's dark. lol... that can be good. Night time is when everyone has fun. Another reason I like it so much is because it's around when you go to sleep. When I'm not able to fall asleep, I love to just lay there and think. I think about everything sometimes.. especially when I can't fall asleep. I always pray a lot or talk to God and tell Him about my day. lol. My favorite part of night is when I'm dreaming. I love dreaming. It's almost like a time to get away from everything, and just have a nice dream. It's really funny because most of my dreams take place at camp. It'd be nice to wake up and really be there.

I can't wait tonight to go to sleep and dream. The worst part is waking up and realizing that you have to go to school. Ugh.

There's so much I miss right now... so many people and places. I just wish I could be stuck in dream world because that's where I see everyone I miss.